I know I have stated before that I know our God is our Healer and is Able to Heal our sweet lil girl and I still believe that to be true. But my human reaction is to prep myself for the worst so that Im not to devastated if He says "no". That I wont become angry, bitter or disappointed but that I would leave myself open to being pleasantly surprised if He decides to work a miracle.
But this morning I became convicted. John read to the boys the story of the young girl and the father. The daughter became very sick and there was nothing anyone could do, so the story goes ( Jesus Storybook Bible) "Jesus!" he said, falling at Jesus' feet. "My daughter," he pleaded. "Please-" But he didn't need to beg because, before he'd even finished speaking, Jesus reached out his hand and helped him up." I'll come at once", Jesus said. Jairus' eyes filled with tears. Jesus was coming. It would be alright
So the story goes "Honey," he said, "it's time to get up." And he reached down into death and gently brought the little girl back to life......Jesus was making the sad things come untrue. He was mending God's broken world"
We then asked the boys that when the daddy found out his daughter was ill, what did he do? He went to Jesus. We told them that's what we need to do now, to go before Jesus and ask him to heal our sweet Ruby. That He is the same Jesus then as He is now! We then prayed over her. It was a sweet time just us and the boys, laying hands on my tummy.
Then I decided to work on my "David" study that I'm doing with our women at church. It was day 5 and the story was about David and Goliath. A story of strength & boldness. When David was being discouraged by his brother, as well as the king, that he was not capable of defeating Goliath, David took God's Word over the opinions of others. He then said to King Saul "Your servant has killed both the lion and the bear; this uncircumcised Philistine will be like one of them, because he has defied the armies of the living God. 37 The LORD who rescued me from the paw of the lion and the paw of the bear will rescue me from the hand of this Philistine.”1 sam 17:36-37
THE LIVING GOD! Our God is able to defeat anything!
That no matter what words I may hear from the doctors, specialists, counselors to make us feel helpless and discouraged that I can choose to believe Gods word. Believing the things HE has done and is still doing in the lives of His people. That He is ABLE, ACTIVE and can choose to make Ruby Jean living proof.
It was then that I ran to my room and fell before my God, My Jesus, My Friend. I pleaded with Him to heal my little Ruby Jean. To defy the odds, to silence the critics, to bring others to the saving power of His name, TO DO A MIRACLE!
I can ask! Everyday I Can ask! And until the day comes where He decides to say, "no", I will continue to ask, because I know HE is ABLE!
Dont get me wrong my hopes are not set in one direction, I am still very much aware of the fear and uncertainty that may head our way, but can always plead with my father. He may say "no" here but I know no matter what she will be healed!! He will answer that prayer one way or another.